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Life, Health  and $$ Update I have been very busy procrastinating on this update.  Actually, I have been very busy with LIFE and procrastinating and figuring out how to pay bills.  Apparently, cleaning up my mess of a life, taking care of myself/my health, and my children is more than a full-time job because I can barely keep up with that. In addition, I have started multiple money making plans because I have never been a proud person but I am a very independent person.  I also HATE asking for things.  I have spent my WHOLE life working hard so that I am dependent on NO one and having a career so that I can pay my bills with minimal worry. I started working for my aunt Miriam and uncle Larry assembling elk calls with a Special work permit I had to apply for at the age of 13 yrs (legal age to work in Oregon is 14 year old) because if I wanted something, I had to buy it myself. You should have seen my little high school heart sink when my Dad said, I nee...

Today I am celebrating ME! I am spending Thanksgiving Day all by myself.  I am so thankful to have this time to MYself.  I know that this quiet space in my life without the noise of other people’s needs and desires is what I need right now and I am so thankful to have it.  I am listening to ME today. Maybe this sounds selfish and ego centered but I spend most of my life giving to others because *I* enjoy it because it make ME feel good.  I can’t keep giving to others if I don’t take care of and think about ME.  Being a Healer right now means Healing myself, taking time for ME and listening to my inituition.  I could blame so many people, systems, situations, life transitions and I could Blame ME.  I AM a Healer and giving thanks to ME is what I need to heal, grow, and thrive. I am thankful to have the time and space to think about ME, MY direction, MY Goals, MY strengths and MY weaknesses. I am thankful to take this space and time to plan and think a...

I read an a super cool article a Facebook friend posted about forgiveness recently.  Forgiveness in much larger sense than my own but the resultant healing is the same.  I read it processed it but still the anger would surface.  I asked myself again.  Do I really forgive these people if I am still this angry?  Can I really forgive these people?  I'd forgotten the words and feelings in the article.  I needed to process these feelings for myself and will likely continue to need to come to this space of forgiveness for myself and for my children so that I can continue to be happy and healthy in *my* head and my heart.  Forgiveness in a really big way.  So what does Forgiveness look like and mean to me?  How do I forgive huge wrongs done against me by people who may or may not ever understand the pain and hurt that they caused? It doesn't mean I will forget, that I will ever be a friend to those people, that what that those people did was ok...

It was sore fatiguing rough crappy weekend.  Not much got done on my part.  I took it really easy and reminded myself to be gentle on myself because pushing it would not help.  I finally made the decision to go to the ER today.  The inflammation on my head and face continued to worsen this week and I've felt since I was diagnosed with liver inflammation that I've had a sinus infection.  However, because antibiotics are liver processed and my doctor didn't want to treat it. Well, my eye started turning red yesterday and my vision seemed blurry.  I also have had a sore throat for the past couple of days and difficulty swallowing.  None of it super serious but I don't even have a PCP picked out yet through OHP and who knows if they'll will feel confident with any of the stuff going on.  I ended up with a very relaxed easy going doctor who sat down and talked with me.  Sunday AM was a good choice of a time to go to Providence ...

Hello Friends and Family, I am sorry I've been a bit absent the past few weeks.  I've busy just trying to navigate this crazy life.  I've had some ups and some downs.  Right at this very moment I'm on a bit of a down slope but always looking to the top of the next hill and figuring out how to get there.  My First step was making this blog because the YOUCARING website (See here for prior Updates and Information https://www.youcaring.com/zoefreemanandfamily-965239 ) only allows one picture per update and sometimes I have more than one picture to convey my ideas and information. I'll start with my health update because that's what most of you reading this want to know most about anyway. I started feeling really good two weeks ago but I pushed myself too hard and fell way way off the nutrition wagon and the past 2 weeks have been pretty crappy.  I got set up with the Oregon Health Plan, though, and started figuring out how to navigate this ne...

Oracle - A person or agency considered to provide wise and insightful counsel Auricle - The external portion of the ear                                 AND A small conical or ear-shaped pouch that projects from each atrium of the heart from https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oracle and https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Auricle I have combined these two words because I hope that some of what I have to say provides wisdom . However, I am also listening .  Everything I say and hear comes from the heart . I also want one place people can look to for health and wellbeing updates and because I have stories to share and although am perfectly happy alone, I do enjoy sharing my stories but even more so when I spend so much time alone.  #fromtheheart